If you’ve known me very long, you may know I was a music major once upon a time ago in college. I was a band geek stereotype if ever there was one. I went to band camp (yep…I played flute…go ahead and get the snickering out for the way), choir camp…even drum major camp. I looooooove music. And I used my music major title as my free pass for buying alllllll the music I could get my hands on. My collection was…eclectic. Jim Croce? Yep. Riverdance? You got it. Static X? Sure. Eminem? Absolutely. Travis Tritt? You betcha. Reel Big Fish? Take my money. I’m in.
Turns out, though, that turning something that’s always been your relaxation and your release into your JOB makes it not-so-relaxing. At all. Do you know any music majors? They’re a tired people, music majors. And some brainiac admissions counselor advised me to take 21 credit hours my first semester…mind you, if you know how music credits work, that’s more like 29. Plus another 15+ hours of practicing every week…plus homework. So, clearly, my admissions counselor hated me for reasons unbeknownst to me.
Anyway…I burned out…bad (I’ve mentioned this on here before). I burned out so bad that I drove around with my radio off for almost a year after I quit and changed my major to Marketing. Silence…in the car…for hours of driving. It wasn’t good. (I still do that when I get overwhelmed, btw.) A quiet car is a consequence of a loud mind for this girl.
Here’s the thing: Business I love for the puzzle…for being able to figure out which levers to pull to affect change…I want to understand all the little pieces and how they fit together. Music I love for its existence…for the way it makes me feel…and how easy it is to relate to lyrics written by a stranger, thousands of miles away, who I’ve never met…and for how it helps me explain my feelings when I can’t quite find the words myself. It’s as universal as math, in my opinion. But the magic of music (for me) is the in the ‘whole’…tearing it apart into all its little pieces so I could analyze it and see how it worked kind of ruined it for me.
So…it took some years to get back to it. And when I did, it was to simpler things. (Laugh if you must, but I legit ended up with a flute injury. That shit got serious. Band kids are tough, for reals yo. Lol 🙂 ) Now I karaoke when I have time (which isn’t nearly enough). Because having some drinks and belting your favorite songs…that’s for love of the game, am-i-right? 🙂 And I spend a lot of time listening to a lot of music in the car…with satellite radio (because hello…commercials are not musically inspiring, kids).
The other thing I do, every three months like clockwork, is make a new playlist of whatever new or interesting music I’ve stumbled across lately. I listen to that playlist a quite a lot for those three months. I’m six years into this quarterly tradition, which means I’ve got 24 little musical snapshots of my life. And when I listen to one of them months (or years) later, I smile…cuz I remember little snippets of what I was doing back when I was obsessed with those songs.
I remember ridiculous car dancing with friends on the way to Milwaukee. I remember wondering about the future with guys I was dating. I remember worrying about things that seemed big at the time, that seem comically small now. I remember crying and laughing and old jobs and old friends. And even if I don’t remember exactly what I was doing at the time, I remember exactly how I felt. And it’s nice…to take a little trip in my mind back to who I was when I made that playlist.
So…today begins my new playlist. We’ll see what memories I can attach to it in the next few months. I’m imagining there will be more empowering, I’m-done-being-a-pushover moments…more laughing-until-I-fall-out-of-my-chair moments…more deciding-where-this-momentum-is-taking-me moments…and hopefully a lot of time of being thankful for new and old friends, family that’s always there, purposeful business ventures, sunny days with my camera, and my obnoxious little puppies (I couldn’t leave them out, ya know…I really do love the little brats).
Winter 2017 Playlist
- Treat you Better by Shawn Mendes
- Shape of You by Ed Sheeran
- Love Me Now by John Legend
- Shine by Years & Years
- Don’t Wanna Know by Maroon 5
- Be As You Are by Mike Poster
- Let’s Hurt Tonight by One Republic
- Play That Song by Train
- Catch & Release by Matt Simons
- This Town by Niall Horan
- When You Love Someone by James TW
- Say You Won’t Let Go by James Arthur
- Not Easy by Alex Da Kid
- Cleopatra by The Lumineers
- Sad Song by We The Kings